Sunday, July 29, 2012 0 comments

I use to be a coward

I've always believe being positive will lead me to the positive side of life. But to my surprise it's not happened the way I wish it to be...

I got hit by thousands of negative surrounding…

Everything looks bad… to the point I’m tired, stressed, hyper tension and unsettle with my own feelings. Nothing satisfied me…

But then I realized that my positivity pushed me towards the comfort zones which silently turn me into a coward. I’m afraid of losing something, afraid of working hard, afraid to even try new things… everything new looks scary to me.

Instead of being brave I’ve become a coward.

It hit me hard at that moment…

I wonder how long I have been acting that way… I start looking back and realize that while back then when I thought I’ve done something… I actually don’t.

p/s: I will never ever avoid my negative thought… I’m going to use them to motivate me the whole day!

Saturday, April 28, 2012 0 comments


"When people ask you about your age, what do you reply? Your real age is not the number of years since the day of your birth, but your real age is what you decide yourself to be! Be wise like a 70 years old, energetic like a 20, innocent like 7, but most importantly, count only the years you have been with Allah, because at the end, they are the only years that would count in your scale!"

(Sheikh Waleed Abdulhakeem)
Wednesday, April 18, 2012 0 comments

I'm Coming Home - Skylar Grey

I'm Coming Home - Skylar Grey 

And the blood will dry
underneath my nails
and the wind will rice up
to fill my sails
so you can doubt
and you can hate
but I know, no matter what it takes

I'm coming home
I'm coming home
tell the world I'm coming home
let the rain wash away
all the pain of yesterday
I know my kingdom awaits
and they've forgiven my mistakes
I'm coming home
I'm coming home
tell the world I'm coming ..

Still far away
from where I belong
but it's always darkest
before the dawn
so you can doubt
and you can hate
but I know, no matter what it takes

I'm coming home
I'm coming home
tell the world I'm coming home
let the rain wash away
all the pain of yesterday
I know my kingdom awaits
and they've forgiven my mistakes
I'm coming home
I'm coming home
tell the world I'm coming ..

I'm coming home
I'm coming home
tell the world I'm coming home
let the rain wash away
all the pain of yesterday
I know my kingdom awaits
and they've forgiven my mistakes
I'm coming home
I'm coming home
tell the world I'm coming .. home
Saturday, April 14, 2012 0 comments


Saturday & Sunday suppose to be the day I'll be hype about.
But ever since I'm in this business everyday is just the same day.
It was too easy to figure out where I am...

Monday to Sunday I spend my whole day at the office.
Sometimes I do complaint about how lifeless I am, but complaining doesn't suit me well.
Sometimes I do feel tired and hopeless, but giving up is not my style.
Sometimes my mood turn 360 degrees... I'm just unpredictable.

With my life style... do you really think I can think straight all the time?

p.s: bear with me.... I don't even know what I'm writing about.
Tired & hungry... perfect combination to reach my next stress level
Thursday, April 12, 2012 0 comments



by Vincen Tabatha

How are we so "different"?
If "different" is just a thing.
If we all have certain features,
What does "different" bring?

People filled with hatred,
Can't possibly see,
That there's not really "differences"
Between you and me.

Looks can't show "difference",
If they're just there to be seen.
If you don't look like someone else,
Why are they so mean?

If being "different" is what is wrong,
I'd rather not be right.
And I'd want to finish living,
Doing the "different" fight.

Wednesday, March 28, 2012 0 comments

내가 너무 피곤 해요....

I'm having a tough week... 
everything need to be done in rush...with my PA wedding's days approaching... I'm getting even nervous.I know I should be happy for her... but in terms of work this is a disaster.
If only she can stay even after getting married...

My soon to be new PA... oh well...she's nice but still there is  lot more to learn. Hope she can get through the tough time...  

Argh~ I'm so tired... my mind, my soul my body... I need 2 days sleep... seriously.

Monday, March 26, 2012 0 comments

[Songs Pick] Lyn - Rain Down (비를 내려줘요)

Lyn - Rain Down (비를 내려줘요)

So that my tears won't be noticed by him 
From my head to my toes, if it drenches my whole body to no end
No one will know if I'm crying or not 

Rain on me, please - hide me in the rain
Save me so that no one will see my tear-stained face
Back to when we were one, to when I smiled in front of him 
Please take me there - please turn us around 

I hate you for leaving me 
I stop my foolish steps that lost its way
I let out a sigh, and another sigh - till when must I be like this?
Tell me the way, please - where do I go? 

What can I do to forget you? I try to bring up bad memories but
I only think of the good times and my heart is becoming more and more broken
But though I try, it's not as easy as it sounds 
Forgive me for making you leave like that 
I'm sorry for ruining our love, I'm sorry 

p/s: I wish I can tell other how rain wash away the pain... 

Do you know why you don't have a boyfriend?


"Do you know why you don't have a boyfriend?
It's because you're too fierce.
Sometimes, you just need to accept things "
- Lee Jae Ha (King 2 Hearts)

p/s: damn! it feels like he is asking me and telling me what is wrong :(

Monday, March 5, 2012 1 comments

Quotes of Life

 “Butterflies can’t see their wings. They can’t see how truly beautiful they are, but everyone else can. People are like that as well. Be better.”


“Butterflies can’t see their wings. They can’t see how truly beautiful they are, but everyone else can. People are like that as well. Be better.”

(Source: thesuicideofangels)

Sunday, March 4, 2012 2 comments

It's All About Me...

I've wonder how should I explain to world about what I feel, about what I think, about everything...
I've wonder how would people react for what I said, what I want and what I think...

All this time,
I've wondering if what I do, what I think and what I want from others perspectives...
But now I realized,
It's not about what people think...
It's all about me.

It's me who I want to comfort the most,
It's me who I want to feel happy about,
It's me who I want to feel proud and bright,
It's me...

The one and onle person that I really want to know the most...

(March 3, 2012)
Tuesday, February 28, 2012 1 comments

11 Random things, answers and questions

Thanks Clai for the 11 question.
(Check out Clai answers for another 11 question)

It helps me re-think and realize what I have, what I don't have, what will happen, what will I do and how will i face it. This is fun anyway ^^

Rules of this tagging game:
1.) Post 11 Random things about yourself
2.) Answer the tagged questions
3.) Create 11 questions for the people you tag to answer

11 Random things about myself.

1. I'm a Muslim
2. Family is everything for me
3. I'm not a fan of cursing words... in other words I hate it.
4. I'm a good listener
5. I love pretty little cute things
6. I love cat.
7. I'm a good singer 
8. My 1st ambition is to be an athelete
9. I collected books, CDs, VCDs, stamps, rings, purses and coins
10.When I am angry, people might get my silent treatment... just for a while.
11. Oh and of coz I'm a Korean dramas, movies and music fan. kekeke~

Here is my 11 answer:

1. How did you survive High school?
I wonder how I did it hahaha... I have a bitter sweet memories about how school but still I survive.

2. What and where is your ideal date?
I've never thought about it, too much expectation might hurt me.

3. Do you prefer a surprise wedding proposal? why?
That would be nice, isn't it every girls dream?

4. What was your favorite channel? why?
Al-Hijrah, this is where I've learned the purpose of my life.

5. What do you think about long distance relationship?
Do they work? Yes, with certain necessary requirements.

It depends on how you see it. There is thousand or maybe millions of people breaking up. And most of them were close enough to be seen. And there is hundreds of people who stay far away from each other but still end up married to each other. 

The distance is not the problem, the problem is how we see it.

6. What do you think is the main cause of infidelity?
When two people look at each other without faith & love no longer be the measurement.

7. What was your greatest achievement so far?
Being alive and fulfilling my duty as a Muslim, a daughter and a career woman.

8. What do you think about interracial marriage?
That's great!

9. What song reminds you a sad story of your life?
01_Rainy_Days_(Unplugged_English_ver.).mp3 Listen on Posterous
errrr.... Rainy Days by Oneway... maybe.

10. Do you think the world will really end this 2012?
Only Allah knows. It might end after this, life going to end anyway so why bother thinking about the world ending. 

11. What is love?
Love is when you realize what you have not what you don't have.

Should I do the tagging? I'm not good at it.
But in case u've stumble to my blog and think u have time to answer some questions, here 11 question for you to answer ^^

1.Your full name?
2. How your life describes you?
3. What is the most regret things you've done?
4. Are you happy? 
5. What makes you smile recently? 
6. When is the last time you cry? why?
7. Who is the last person you say 'Thank You' to?
8. What will you do if it is a last day for you to alive?
9. What other language would you like to learn?
10. What is the last book you read?
11. Will you tagged this to other?

There you go... fill in and spread it kekekeke~

And this questions are tagged to:

Nonie (obviously she's not me ^^)


HIijab & Fashion

I have to say this 17 years old girl just wake me up.

She was right about everything, now I realize that I've forgot why I wear the Hijab from the first time.
When others think wearing a Hijab is just totally out of fashion, people start make it look fashionable. And when that happened I started to chase the 'fashion' just to make sure I'm not too far away from the trend.

Forgive me ya Allah, I'm still trying to fulfill my duty, still trying... to be a good Muslim not from other people eyes... but from YOU (ALLAH).

To Adibaaah, thank you for the great reminder.
Thursday, February 23, 2012 2 comments

It's Never Too Late

It took me years to understand the real meaning of happiness.
It took me years for me to realize what is love.
It took me years to fully understand why I am here.

It is a shame for me to just learn but know nothing about it.
And now I understand why Islam and Muslim are 2 different entities.

For the love YOU filled in me which I didn't realize before.
For the happiness I've found now within YOUR love.
Thank You Allah, for letting me know
it's never too late...


Sunday, February 12, 2012 0 comments

Jang Woo Hyuk (Feat. Jo Hyun Ah of Urban Zakapa - Shouting Out To Memory (기억에게 외친다)

Baby why me - you are leaving me
I cannot let you go
Don't leave like this - don't leave without saying a word
If you love me - I cannot let you go
Don't leave like this - don't leave without saying a word
If we walk back in time, where would we be?
When we first kissed? Or to the street where we had a big fight?
Inside the faded memory tape, you're tears live
I'm just filled with sighs
Baby where you at - you, right now
Baby I need you - me, right now
To my heart, I ask to give you back to me thousands of times
I shout, shout, shout to my memories
Turn back time to the small cafe in front of your house
I am walking through my memories
Hold on - don't leave
That last place where we separated
If only I can go back, I want to say it
My trembling feelings - I want to say that I don't wanna let go of your hand
I look at myself, holding back tears and saying harsh words to you
Baby where you at - you, right now
Baby I need you - me, right now
To my heart, I ask to take me back to then, thousands of times
I shout, shout, shout to my memories
Turn back time to my room where I am alone
I am running toward you
You, who has left, is not by my side
In my remaining memories, I shout out to you
Look at me like this
I loved you more than anyone
You, who has left, is not by my side
In my remaining memories, I shout out to you
Look at me like this
I loved you more than anyone

I pick this song because... I'm bored to death, and all I can think about is all the memories back then.
Everything is perfect but not everything is great.  


Read Each One Carefully & Think About It a Second or Two


Quoted from

  1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.. 
  2. No man or woman is worth your tears & the one who is, won't make you cry.
  3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have. 
  4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand & touches your heart. 
  5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can' t have them 
  6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile. 
  7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world. 
  8. Don't waste your time on someone, who isn't willing to waste their time on you. 
  9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful. 
  10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened. 
  11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting & just be more careful about who you trust next time around.. 
  12. Make yourself a better person & know who you are before you try & know someone else & expect them to know you. 
  13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to. 



Friday, February 10, 2012 0 comments

Every time...

Every time I tried to ignore your hurtful words
you'll give me that look...
and say's “please listen to me”...

Every time I tried to escape from your gaze...
you'll give me that look...
and say's “please look at me”... 

Every time things turn out bad
you'll give me that look...
and say's “please try to understand”...

Every time I'm asking for explanation
you'll give me that look...
and say's “I can't think straight right now”...

Every time you come up with something unforgivable
you'll give me that look...
and say's “I'm sorry”...

but now will you...
listen to me and look at me...
coz now...
I need you to understand
because I can't think straight right now… I'm sorry
and I don't need you to give me that look again.

Nov 11, 2009 


Story Behind Your Birth Date.

Another old post I found at the attic of my other blogs.... Kekekeke ~ this is something fun to read. Take note! This is just for fun, don't take it seriously.

This is interesting... It might not that accurate beside all these things are just for fun. But I believe some might get shocked that it is much more similar describing our self. As for me I'm number '1' and it seems like its kind of true hahaha... So tell me what number are you?

If you were born on the 1st, 10th, 19th, 28th of any month you’re number 1.

If you were born on the 2nd, 11th, 20th, 29th of any month then you’re number 2.

If you were born on the 3rd, 12th, 21st, 30th of any month then you’re number 3.

If you were born on the 4th, 13th, 22nd, 31st of any month then you’re number 4.

If you were born on the 5th, 14th, 23rd of any month then you’re number 5.

If you were born on the 6th, 15th, 24th of any month then you’re number 6.

If you were born on the 7th, 16th, 25th of any month then you’re number 7.

If you were born on the 8th, 17th, 26th of any month then you’re number 8.

If you were born on the 9th, 18th, 27th of any month then you’re number 9.

Number 1.

You are smart, straight talking, funny, stubborn, hardworking, honest, jealous on competing basis, kind hearted, angry, friendly, authorities, famous person... always want to be and regarded as first on people.

Position, number 1 people often like to be independent, will never be under others, self confident people! You are most likely to fall in love in the younger age, but will get marry when you mature!

You are likely to have problems with people who have opposite views and you are most likely to take revenge over your enemies in a long time basis.

You are a spender, but you will have a good profession in the future.

If you are a guy you will be very popular that everybody will have mental attraction and respect at you. You can go anywhere from the local shop to the heart of the parliament because you are positive and well talented in numerous issues. But in your life you will always have some people who will work hard to bring you & your name down. This is undercover!! Coz of your smart behavior you will be hated by some people too.

Your family life is very cool; you will have a very nice partner & Wonderful children.

You are pioneer, independent & original.

Your best match is 4, 6 and 8 good match is 3, 5 and 7.

Number 2.

No matter what, you will be loved by everyone coz your ruler is the Moon and everyone loves the Moon. Well... You are a person who day dream a lot, you have very low-self confidence, you need back up for every move in your life, and you are very much unpredictable. Means you do change according to time and circumstances, kind a selfish, have a very strong sense of musical, artistic talent, verbal communication.

Your attitudes are like the Moon, comes to gloom and fade away so everybody can expect changes in you. You can be a next Mahatma Gandhi who does peace love or you can be a Hitler who wants to destroy the man kind and peace (I mean in the community and your own home).

Feel the difference which will make you stronger! Most of the time your Words are a kind of would be happening true! So without any knowledge you can predict the situation.

You will become poets, writer and any artistic business people. You are not strong in love, so you will be there and here till you get marry.

If you’re a girl, you will be a responsible woman in the whole family. If you’re a man, you’ll involve in fights and argument in the family or vice-versa. Means you will sacrifice your life for the goodness sake of your family. You’re gentle, intuitive with a broad vision, a power behind the scenes, well balanced people.

Your best match is 2, 5 and 9. No other people can put up with you!

Number 3

You are a person of hard hearted, selfish most of the times, religious, loves to climb up in your life.

You always tend to have lots of problems within your family in the early stages but you will put up with everything.

You have the strong word power, pretty happy face... so wherever you go always you have got what you wanted.

And from the birth always wanted to work hard in order to achieve will not get anything without hard work.

When you reach a man/woman age you want other younger once to listen to you because you want younger people to respect people older than them. You do set so many examples to others. Generally you are not a cool person. It's not easy thing dealing with you. A tough player you are! But once you like someone's attitude then here you go, what can I say? It will be a lasting friendship. You always have respect from others.

Your life seems to have lots of worries and problems but sure they won't be long... You will always have brilliant kids!!! You love the money a bit too much so temptation will push you to endless trying and trying.

If you are a guy then it's over coz you’ll spend a life time looking after your family and help friends, you’re always being generous and kind (except 21st born men). And number 3s you will be such an example of how to be in the culture & life.

If you are girl then you have good character and culture & hardworking attitude. You always follow... You are a freedom lover, creative, ambition focused, a person who brings beauty, hope & joy to this world.

Your best match is 6, 9. Good match 1, 3, and 5.

Number 4

You are very stubborn too, very hard working but unlucky in important matters in life, very cool, helpful, you have rough word power.. Might put lots of people away from you, you may cause nuisance to others if you are a man, and you often understands others and their problems well.

If you are a girl you are very good with studies and arts. If you are a guy you spend most of the time after girl friends (almost) at times, you will have sort of too much fun life with mates & girls. Your friends will spend your time & money and get away with their life and you will become empty handed and don't know what to do. So be careful!! You love to spend anyway.

Your good will is you are always there to help family and friends. Tell you what; number 4 people are little gems, especially the girls.

You always fall in love in younger age as well. You often live with disappointments, for an example you have got a degree in some thing... but you will be unemployed... or will do very ordinary jobs. But you will take care of your family very well. All you need to be careful of people who will take advantage of your kind heart. And beware of your relations too. You are radical, patient, persistent, and a bit old-fashioned; you live with foundation & order.

Your best match is 1, 8. Good match 5, 6, and 7.

Number 5

You are very popular within the community, you can get things done by just chatting... to even enemies! You have a pretty good business mind, you are often have no-idea what is today is like, or tomorrow is like, you are a person who does anything when your head thinks "let’s do this". You will be famous if you open up a business, get involve in share dealings, music etc.

You are very popular with sense of humor, you are the one your friends and families will always ask for help and you are the one actually get money on credit and help your friends. You will have more than 1 relationship, but when u get settle down you will be a bit selfish anyway. Coz your other half will have a pretty good amount of control in you, be careful! You tend to go for other relationships! Contacts even you are married at times 'coz your popularity. You are someone who gets along with anyone coz the number 5 is the middle number. Changes & freedom lovers you are! You are an explorer with magic on your face. You learn your life through experience and it's your best teacher.

Your best match 1, 2, and 9. Good match 6, 8.

Number 6

Ooopppss! You are born to enjoy... You don't care about others. I mean you are always wanted to enjoy your life time, you are a person... You will be very good in either education or work wise or business management! You are talented, kind (but with only people who you think are nice), very beautiful girls and guys, popular and more than lucky with anything in your lives. All the goodness does come with you. Your mind and body is just made perfect for love. You are lovable by any other numbers.

But if you are number 6 men, you will experience kind of looks from most girls and will involve in more than few relationships until you get married. If you are girl, most of you will get marry/engaged early. You are a caring person towards your family & friends. If you miss the half-way mark then you are about to suffer physically and mentally. Generally you will lead very good inner-home happiness with nothing short of. You are a person of compassion, comfort & fairness, domestic responsibility, good judgment, and after all you can heal this world wounds to make peace for every life coz you have the great power of caring talent to make this world of love one step further...

Your best match 1, 6, and 9. Good match 4, 5.

Number 7

You have got the attraction to anyone out there, you are realistic, very confident, happy, such a talented individual with your education, music, arts, singing, and most importantly acting too. You have real problems with bad temper!

If you are a girl, you are popular with the subjects listed above. You give up things for your parents. I mean you value your family status a lot; you will be in the top rank when you reach a certain age.

If you are a guy you are popular with girls, you are a very talented too. Most of the number 7s faces lots of problems with their marriage life. Only a very few are happy. You have everything in your life, but still always number 7s have some sort of unsettledness, such worries all their lifetime. It's probably the Lord given you all l sort of over the standard humans talents and you are about to suffer in family life. So you need to get ready looking for a partner rather than waiting. If you don't, then you might end-up single. So take care with this issue, ok? You are wonderful, friendly, artistic, happy person.

You are born to contribute lots to this world.

Your best match is 2. Good matches are 1, 4.

Number 8

You are a very strong personality, there's no one out there will understand you. You are very good at pointing your finger at something and say "this is what". You are more likely to suffer from the early ages. I mean poverty. If your times are not good you might lose either of your parents and end up looking after your entire family. You often suffer all the way in life. The problems will not allow you to study further, but you will learn the life in a very practical way. You are the one who will fight for justice and may die in the war too.

You are normally very reserved with handful of friends and most of the time live life lonely and always prepared to help others. Well, once you get married (which is often late) then your bad lucks will go away a bit and you become safe. You will face unexpected problems such as: the error, government, poisonous animals, and accidents. You are someone with great discipline, persistence, courage, strength which will take you to success. You are a great part of a family team. You are a fighter!

Your Best match 1, 4, and 8. Good match 5.

Number 9

Hey, you guys are the incompatibles people in the world. You are so strong, physically and mentally... You are often having big-aims. You will work hard and hard to get there. Normally you suffer in the early age from family problems and generally you will have fighting life. But when you achieve what you have done, it's always a big task you have done!

You are so much respected in the community, you are a person who can make a challenge and successfully finish the matter off. You are very naughty in your younger age, often beaten up by your parents and involve in fights and you seemed to have lots of injuries in your life time. But when you grow you become calm and macho type.

Love is not an easy matter for you. You are good in engineering or banking jobs coz people always trust you. Your family life is very good, but will have worries over your children. Your qualities are humanitarian, patient, very wise & compassionate. You are born to achieve targets and serve everyone all equally without any prejudice. You are totally a role model to anybody in the world for a great inspiration.

Your Best match 3, 5, 6, and 9. Good match 2.

Too Close But Too Far Away

Found this post from my old account. It's funny to re-read it again.

I think I've met you before
But still I can't figure when and where 

I really think I've seen you before
But still I wonder is that you? 

I believe I've met you before
That smile, that eyes... 

I believe it was you who I saw before
Can’t seem to erase the way you look at me... 

Did you hear that?
The beating of my heart...
Can you see this?
How you make me react... 

Now I'm standing here right in front of you
Now I'm standing here just close enough to touch you 

But why do I feel this ache inside of me
I guess it's because you're close enough but still too far away 

I guess I shouldn't do this...
I shouldn't look at you... 

argh!!! I guess this poster is a bad idea...  


-By NoNie - 
September 03, 2009 


In the mood to mess up everything and anything hehehe