Tuesday, August 31, 2010 0 comments

The Empty Me...





Ever since I was a kid... I've always known as the princess of the family...
I got everyone attention no matter where I go...
That feeling grows in me... I've only learn to accept but not to give...

While being loved by everyone... I'm still a good girl... not a spoiled one
I can get everything I want but I've never request anything... 
That feeling grows in me... I've only learn to appreciate but not to show it...

When some people hate me for whatever reason they have...
I stop complaining and take everything as a stupid joke...
That feeling grows in me... I've only learn to listen but not to tell...

The feelings that grows in me becoming a habit...
when I love someone... I hardly tell how much I love them...
when I want something... I can't make a request afraid it might troubles them...
when I feel thankful, fear, sad... I have only show one expression... EMPTY

The pretty face I have... is an empty shell... 
my smile, my tears, my fears my love... it becomes a burden to people around me...
Because the one that they've known for a long time is... the EMPTY me.
Wednesday, August 18, 2010 0 comments

Random Me




It's been awhile.
writing something means I have a lot in mind.
but writing this doesn't mean I have something to say
there is a time when I just feel... 
I need to spill it... I'll die inside keeping every random words... 

Life is like this and like that...
you think you've planned really well
you think you've done everything
but still none of the results comes up as what you want
not 100%

But look at us
we still here
walking, running, laughing, praying and still planning

None of the unsuccessful event make us stops...
Even when we keep repeat to ourself
'I'm dead...' this will be my last hopes' and so on

The truth is we never stop.
We might cry a river but nothing can stop us
We might stumble but still we'll stand up and walking again

It's just a matter of time.
To lose and to find it back
To learn and keep learning
this is life... take it or leave it.

and just like that... spill it or suck it up 
 
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